ATTENTION ALL PREGLYS ***UPDATE***
I first want to thank everyone for using your knowledge of pregnancy to help others like myself. I have learned so much from many of y'all and i have nothing else to say but thank you.
With that being said, I would like to share a little about me.
I am currently 4 months pregnant, and at 10 weeks i was rushed to the hospital due to excruciating abdominal pain. I was drowning in tears, thinking that i had lost my baby. Doctors sent me to get an ultrasound to find the baby's heartbeat but also to make sure that this wasn't an Ectopic pregnancy. I was very lucky because my baby was perfectly fine but the doctor did find a 16cm mass in my left ovary. My OBGYN decided i would need surgery because after a couple of weeks, this mass seem to not change.
Today is the day before my surgery and even though i do not show my true feelings in front of my family, i need to confess that i am extremely nervous and i need to feel like i am not completely alone. My family keeps talking about this surgery like if i was going out for a walk. They do not realize that my child's life is in risk and that is a scary feeling for me. I may be over reacting, but this is my first baby, this is my first surgery... i am completely new to this.
Long story short, i decided to share this with all the preglys because i have seen how nice and supportive you all have been with other members and i hoped to get the same kind of support. Whether i do receive the support that i seek from this forum or not, i want to thank you for answering any doubts or questions i ever had and also for listening on many post my opinion without being disrespectful.
I may not be able to give an update soon because i will be in the hospital for about 3-4 days but as soon as i am back home i will give an update on every single detail.
God bless ladies :X
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*UPDATE*
I had my surgery on Tuesday, May 10th. Everything went great, i stayed in the hospital until Friday 13th. The baby's heartbeat was great, i was just so thankful that God was with me the whole time and i couldn't stop smiling even when in pain. I came home Friday night and went right to sleep. Next morning, Saturday 14th at 3:10am i woke up because i needed to use the restroom when my water broke. It was instantly followed by tons of bloods and i knew it, she was gone. I yelled for help, and my husband called the ambulance. I was rushed to the E.R to finally after going through all the kinds of testing they do, confirm my miscarriage. My precious baby was on her way, and since she was 17wks along, i had to deliver her. After all the medicine and moving around, when i was finally stable in a room with all my family... I felt her come down. I couldn't help but cry my heart out.
Today, we buried her to give her a proper "see you soon." I don't know what to do. I feel empty. I don't see the point in waking up every morning. I walk into my own house and i ask myself "what am i supposed to do now?" I feel lost, and i have no way of fixing this feeling. I know life continues, but how do you do that when your motivation is no longer there. I am too scared to even think of ever trying again, so i don't think i will anytime soon. I think that i am also going to ask a moderator to delete my account sometime tonight or tomorrow because i think it's going to be more painful to come on here and try to support people. I just need some time to focus on picking myself back up. Anyway, thank you ladies for being the support and information i needed throughout my pregnancy, i will never forget that. I hope God can bless you with beautiful babies.
With that being said, I would like to share a little about me.
I am currently 4 months pregnant, and at 10 weeks i was rushed to the hospital due to excruciating abdominal pain. I was drowning in tears, thinking that i had lost my baby. Doctors sent me to get an ultrasound to find the baby's heartbeat but also to make sure that this wasn't an Ectopic pregnancy. I was very lucky because my baby was perfectly fine but the doctor did find a 16cm mass in my left ovary. My OBGYN decided i would need surgery because after a couple of weeks, this mass seem to not change.
Today is the day before my surgery and even though i do not show my true feelings in front of my family, i need to confess that i am extremely nervous and i need to feel like i am not completely alone. My family keeps talking about this surgery like if i was going out for a walk. They do not realize that my child's life is in risk and that is a scary feeling for me. I may be over reacting, but this is my first baby, this is my first surgery... i am completely new to this.
Long story short, i decided to share this with all the preglys because i have seen how nice and supportive you all have been with other members and i hoped to get the same kind of support. Whether i do receive the support that i seek from this forum or not, i want to thank you for answering any doubts or questions i ever had and also for listening on many post my opinion without being disrespectful.
I may not be able to give an update soon because i will be in the hospital for about 3-4 days but as soon as i am back home i will give an update on every single detail.
God bless ladies :X
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*UPDATE*
I had my surgery on Tuesday, May 10th. Everything went great, i stayed in the hospital until Friday 13th. The baby's heartbeat was great, i was just so thankful that God was with me the whole time and i couldn't stop smiling even when in pain. I came home Friday night and went right to sleep. Next morning, Saturday 14th at 3:10am i woke up because i needed to use the restroom when my water broke. It was instantly followed by tons of bloods and i knew it, she was gone. I yelled for help, and my husband called the ambulance. I was rushed to the E.R to finally after going through all the kinds of testing they do, confirm my miscarriage. My precious baby was on her way, and since she was 17wks along, i had to deliver her. After all the medicine and moving around, when i was finally stable in a room with all my family... I felt her come down. I couldn't help but cry my heart out.
Today, we buried her to give her a proper "see you soon." I don't know what to do. I feel empty. I don't see the point in waking up every morning. I walk into my own house and i ask myself "what am i supposed to do now?" I feel lost, and i have no way of fixing this feeling. I know life continues, but how do you do that when your motivation is no longer there. I am too scared to even think of ever trying again, so i don't think i will anytime soon. I think that i am also going to ask a moderator to delete my account sometime tonight or tomorrow because i think it's going to be more painful to come on here and try to support people. I just need some time to focus on picking myself back up. Anyway, thank you ladies for being the support and information i needed throughout my pregnancy, i will never forget that. I hope God can bless you with beautiful babies.
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Sorry your family is acting that way hopefully deep down they're scared too and are just trying to keep positive for your sake?.
I look like this O.o